“I would not watch my season”: Tessanne Chin talks aftermath of winning ‘The Voice’
Seven years ago, Tessanne Chin was named the winner of season 5 of
However,
winning the American reality competition series was not all the Messenger singer thought it would be,
as she shared with Yendi Phillipps on her YouTube show Odyssey with Yendi.
“I had a hard time looking back at things to do with The Voice for a very long time, like I would not watch it, I would not watch my season,” Chin noted in the 42-minute long interview.
Chin, who saw
her several of her performances on the show top the iTunes chart and even enter
the Billboard Hot 100, said “I think it was connected to everything that
happened after The Voice…which wasnot what everyone expected, not what I expected and I just felt like thismassive, big disappointment, I felt like an absolute failure.
“It was
something that I had to reckon with, I had to reckon with…I heard this quote
once and it stuck with, it struck me so, so hard, she said. “You have to reckon
with what your life is versus what you thought it would be or what you thought
your dreams were.
“Because that
in itself, for me, was a massive wakeup call in that I got everything I wanted.
I got everything I dreamt about, with the exception of few things, and
realising when I had it that ‘Holy crap, this may not be what I thought I
wanted’.”
The expectations she had of herself were many, but those of people who supported her journey on the show and afterwards, the singer said were “absolutely heavy”.
“When you
know that you are doing your absolute best to make things happen, and you may
not necessarily have all the support, but you know, I don’t like to put blame.
“From I know I
can do everything I do in my power to make something a success or whatever then
I’m at ease with it. And we did, there’s nothing that we could have done
differently, there’s nothing that we would have done differently cause it’s all
brought me here.”
She said the expectations and pressure from people around, and herself, made her approach songwriting and performing from a different place.
However, with the birth of her daughter, Zaia, in February, the singer says her life has been changed and she’s now in a place where she wants to write and sing again.
